The way out......

In the middle of the mountain, it is a forest. I am coming from afar going far. The future is bright; we have to believe that faith makes a way for miracles to happen. Very easy to say that to a hopeless person with a warm hug, but there are times you get in his shoes and miss who would comfort you with the same hug you used to give.

Looking at the watch, how long I’ve been climbing not having a clear direction of where I am going. Sometimes I regret having started this journey early but a thankful voice raise in my soul that I started it before too late. In the central of many voices I feel like let me just drop all but the way back is very dangerous, and the place is horrible; I do not want to turn back. There are times I need a hall pause, but trying to take it a reminder tells me that the time will still be running. Only a break to take a deep breath by then the devil finds me in my idle time to make me busy.

Lost everything and still losing but waiting on the due time to come. It is taking long though, waiting is not easy and especially when your surroundings are harvesting their blessings day after days and one after another. All their fingers pointed at me and spreading rumors of how they view things. How the Lord is good, He doesn’t see the way men sees and never lend ear to their rumors, otherwise the enemy would have swallowed me.

In a situation where nothing is going well. It is like all my prayers have either not been heard or might have been put in the dust bean. Then it makes me wonder, is it true that he answers our prayers? Does He treat us alike? Searched for a scholarship, not qualified was the answer yet those less smart than I admitted. Looked for a good work after many years of unemployment, got an internship. Trying to build a family, only married men are snitching. Identifying the right guy to marry, the first fallen on pretends to be a lamb yet a locust. Lucky the marriage wasn’t yet.

Always wondering what is next, no way out there…. 

A new year, a new grace and new blessings always believing. Desperate though, unable to hide my brokenness anymore. My face faints and my bones shake, I lay in my bed all the failures and unsuccessful plans catch me on my pillow. Weak up tired but still pretend that everything is well.

So many questions without answers, God promises remain. Are you in such a situation, only if you would know the love God has for you.

I know it is not easy but repeat this prayer as you read:

“Dear Lord, am desperate. Tired of waiting on you. But still pursuing the battle anyway. Give me power to finish the race you called me to. Help me to live a holy life so that your name may be glorified in all things. Be enthroned in my heart, lead me and transform me into your likeness. Make my heart rejoice again as your way is being fulfilled in my life. I am yours, and you said that none can snatch me out of your hand, so Lord take me for I am yours. I have decided to follow you Jesus. In Jesus name I pray Amen.”